Over 16,000 people committed suicide in Tamil Nadu last year. More remarkably, over 2,000 of them chose self-immolation, the most painful of deaths, by far the highest number in India.Doctors, nurses, family members—all had the same question: Did she feel the pain?Maheshwari remembers anxious faces leaning over her, peppering her with questions, even as she struggled to put together where she was and why.“No pain,” she managed to tell someone wearing a white coat and a stethoscope. He had a